all i have to do is write six pages on the differing opinions of laozi, mozi, and chu hsi (three chinese religious/philosophical figures: a daoist, a utilitarian and a confucian), go to class tomorrow morning to turn it in, and i’m outta here. plan to denver to connect to houston to go home and eat myself to death. mmm. the paper should be a piece of cake, too, if i can tear myself away from the playstation long enough to focus and get this taken care of. but hey, it’s only six, right?…

i’ve got to remember to reserve myself a shuttle to the airport. i’ll do that right now in fact. more later.

some things i decided i like tonight:

1-the lawrence arms song, “nebraska”.

2-having someone to talk to, no matter where they are.

3-the fact that i get to visit illinois for a week over new years.

something i’ve never liked, in fact that’s sort of a pet peeve of mine:

–as a skateboarder, or even biker when i used to have a bike, i can’t stand when perfectly able people on foot make a point to only cross streets from the inclined handicapped-accessible part of street corner crossings. you have feet that work. you can step up or down the curb. i have a skateboard that i don’t know how to make jump into the air, i need that incline more than you do, and you’re in my way. it’s not something i’ve very adamant about, it just doesn’t make sense to me. they put inclines there so that people unable to step up or down curbs can have access, and then everybody starts using it. wouldn’t you rather step up or down the curb and relish the fact that you’re so capable?

i’m sitting here in my computer class trying to pay attention, but all i can think about is driving around liberty city stealing cars and creating other carnage. i’m a pretty big loser, this week. but seriously, that game is soooooo good…

okay, here’s my real christmas wish, with some background first. i went to high school with a bunch of wonderful and fun and intelligent people in aurora, illinois. since graduation of course all of my friends scattered to various universities all over the country (places like boston, new york, philadelphia, baltimore, and champaign). in addition, this semester my best friend in college (maybe) is in australia. next semester, another best friend is going to florence, italy, and one, possibly two are going to edinburgh, scotland. i also just found out that i really like talking to someone who lives in toronto.

my complaint: why can’t the coolest people i know in the world all be in one place at any one time? i’d be in blissful happy moods all the time if i could spend more of my life with these people. but circumstances are against me.

my solution: rocket car. i’m not kidding. i want more than anything, if i think about it, to just be able to see my friends whenever i want, wherever they are. if i had a rocket car capable of insanely high speed travel, i could live a contented, happy existence, visiting people no matter where they are in the world. i could just take an afternoon jaunt to boston and see some friends, drop in at university of illinois for dinner with some others, maybe stop by houston to say hi to mom and dad, and be back before sunday morning in time to do homework. it’d be perfect, me in my rocket car, whizzing through the skies with a big grin on my face because i don’t have to miss anyone anymore.

so, if anyone wants to make my lifetime, you know what to do for christmas. leave a rocketcar with a bow on it in my driveway christmas morning and i’ll love you forever.

i don’t even read amplified, so i can’t technically be “anti” anything. but i do read the hero, so it seems natural to want to be a part of their new club. so here i am, and there they are at the right.

i spent most of today playing grand theft auto 3. you know how i said tony hawk 3 is probably the most fun game ever? well, it’s tied with grand theft auto, only with the added bonus that the latter is very violent and involves going on crime sprees in order to do well. oh man, i’ve been a recluse today… i think i spent about five hours on the couch straight. uh oh, i’m becoming a troll.

but it’s just so fun!

at least now a friend of mine came over and we’re gonna watch a movie and get dinner, or something. must stop being video game zombie and start trying to rejoin society. plus, i’m getting really hungry.

the death cab for cutie show last night was . . . outstanding. i have to admit, i’m not that familiar with them or their music (yet…that concert made a lifelong fan out of someone who already had an interest in their music) so this may not be the most informed review, but i will try.

they opened with one of the very mellow songs, i think the first track off their new album, that really showcases the vocal talent of benjamin gibbard. i have to say that it floored me. i thought his recorded voice sounded beautiful, and live it was no less moving. he’s just an incredible singer and songwriter. the live show made the pretty parts more touching because they were right there, and the rocking parts more energetic and loud than the recorded songs sound. in all aspects just a really good show. i can’t wait to see them again someday.

also, the band the prom who are on the same label apparently, with a piano/singer, bass, drum trio played some really great songs too. i liked them and plan to check them out. the middle band though, john vancerslice — well, that set could have been shorter. i hate to say it but i just saw nothing to like about them. i felt bad too, because i was standing pretty close to the stage, and i just could not enjoy their songs. i hoped they didn’t see me standing there, probably showing obvious signs of impatience while hoping they would finish so i could see a much better band. oh well.

the adventure didn’t stop after the last song of the encore though once i left the el rey. oh no. on the bus down wilshire, an old, crazy homeless black dude mumbling to himself fondled the breast of another overweight, five-toothed, weird-looking hispanic homeless woman right in front of me, which started them on a little game of musical chairs while she moved to get him to stop pestering her and he moved closer to her because he wanted to “tell her something”. that was interesting. then i had the pleasure of standing on the corner of wilshier and alvarado for 25 minutes around 12:30 at night waiting to transfer to the bus that runs back down past my apartment. this is not the kind of place you want to raise your children. or hang out alone after midnight when you’re a skinny white kid — not to say i was afraid, because i’ve never had any problems in the city so far just minding my own business. it’s just not something you would do for fun.

when the bus finally did come, i was the only one on it besides the driver. i can’t say that’s ever happened to me on public transportation before; and that was fine, just a little bizarre. so all in all, it was a whole new layer of fun on los angeles’ crappy public transportation system.

oh and for those interested (i.e. other guys, i’m assuming), tony hawk 3 is the most fun video game i’ve played so far. it’s unbelievable. i haven’t even got to grand theft auto yet, because tony hawk is so cool. good game. recommended.

end of loser video game talk. lunch time.

to all loyal collapsing readers:

i appreciate your continued support and interest in my writings, but i am sad to report that both tony hawk 3 and grand theft auto 3 for playstation 2 showed up in my mailbox today. although this isn’t bad news for me, it may be for anyone expecting me to a) write often or b) have anything good to write about. aside from the death cab show tonight (very excited), you can already assume how i’ll be spending the next few days.

see you on monday,

the management.

ps — i’ll at least post about the show sometime later when i get home. and whether or not we beat those UCLA bastards this weekend in the only football game of the year that “matters”.

pps — kidding about the UCLA part. school spirit and college rivalries are so lame.

i had to spend most of the four hours between morning class and afternoon work doing a computer project for my director class, since the lab isn’t open on weekends and i don’t have director at home. so after spending about two and a half hours in front of a computer, i have a nice little finished project that fills all the requirements and is also the lamest simpsons game ever made. you can download it and play it if you want, but i’m telling you, it’s lame. it’s funny, sort of, the first few times at least. and at least it’s sound programming-wise.

i would love to read blogs and write more right now but if i’m going to eat anything before i get off work at 4:30, having eaten nothing yet today, i’m going to have to do it in the next half hour before i go to the microfiche dungeon (i.e. work). time for some powerbar action.

for anyone concerned, i got to watch family guy then go to the redman show without missing any of it. lucky me.

to be honest though, it wasn’t very good. i stand by the fact that he makes fun music videos and i think a lot of his songs are better than a lot of the popular hip hop of the day. but the live show was really not very interesting. for one, it’s even harder to hear what the hell he’s saying and appreciate anything other than the very loud beats. also, there were FAR too many “can i get a hell yeah!…” or some variation of that (over a dozen. not just a few too many. an exorbitant amount). i wasn’t too thrilled with the segment of chanting something to the tune of “if you ain’t smokin’ then get the fuck out!”. i mean, i don’t see anything wrong with some recreational soft drug usage if that’s your thing. i’m not a big fan of the whole cult of marijuana though. i guess maybe i expect too much from old redman.

hey, at least it was free.

now reading and to bed, basically. i just bought a ticket for tomorrow night’s death cab for cutie show because the el rey site said there were only 24 left. i hope they didn’t put that there just to convince me to pay the 2.50 service charge (much better than going through ticket master, at least). either way, looks like i’m going to a rock show tomorrow night for sure now. yum.

can’t we just build a fucking bomb the size of earth and cut a hole out of the middle in the shape of the united states? drop the motherfucker around us and take care of business once and for all?

thank you for the link. that was damn hilarious.

rockin’ some old school dj qbert at the moment and i have to leave for class soon.

i’m undecided as how to handle tonight’s situation. see, redman, one of the only current hip hop stars that i think is talented and clever (tell me you you’ve seen his videos and don’t at least find him entertaining and i won’t believe you), is performing for free on campus tonight for “troy week”. but do i really want to go, and suffer through the “pep rally” beforehand (one of the things in this world that will never, ever appeal to me in any way), and then suffer through standing around with what i’m guessing will be a crowd comprised of a lot of nasty-dancing hoochies and dirtbags… eh, very debatable. especially when i could stay home and watch family guy.

looks like we’ll just have to wait and see how the spirit moves me. maybe by 7:30 i’ll be feeling ghetto fabulous and won’t be able to just stay home.