wrapping up the holiday weekend here in my apartment, not exactly feeling at my cheeriest. certain long-standing entanglements have made it clear that at least from the other end a good shearing is needed. now i sort of feel like a vine whose tree has been cut down — limp, frail, and to a degree empty. hoping i will find a way to stay healthy and green on my own but sure some rough times are ahead.

and hoping that being just good friends with the tree that shook me off isn’t impossibly difficult and frustrating. wait — we were trying to be subtle here. but really, the hard feelings are not nearly as prevalent as the worries: what comes next?

take a cue from the next song of the week, a classic tune from the descendents called cheer. and don’t point the lovesick finger at me. i was thinking of picking this one a couple of weeks ago when i tossed on this cd for the first time in a long time; i’m not just whining.

just had to set the record straight.

[now hearing this: super furry animals – “sidewalk serfer girl” from rings around the world. i originally bought the dvd but brought it back to amoeba today to exchange for the cd. the music is probably the best brit-pop i’ve heard; the dvd is just distracting and boring. save those extra five bucks and buy yourself a sundae.]