a nice long weekend in the bag, i find myself with a few extra hours at the end of today with time to reflect. normally it’s sunday night and i’ve been trying to cram as much fun or personal business in, i cling to the last few weekend minutes too tenaciously to pause in consideration. with that whole extra day, i was able to fit in a full weekend with my buddies, a sunday evening of reading and an excellent ted leo show at the el rey, visit the lady friend today for an afternoon of lounging (not as boring as it sounds), and watch the very decent mystic river this evening on tivo.

so what i’m thinking are a few things. obviously, as usual, i had a great time with all my friends assembled here at the apartment for a couple nights this weekend. i have more fun with those few people than i ever seem to have doing anything else; and all we were doing was eating and drinking and hanging out at my place. so that doesn’t require any thinking over. those guys are just great.

but maybe it’s a combination of the rain, long hours at work, other work-related drama, not seeing the girl as often as i might like, and being kinda broke lately that makes me feel strange and restless and dissatisfied tonight. i was telling her today, if my life is a wave, with peaks and troughs (pre-calculus? sine curves, anyone?), i am very aware of feeling at a low point right now. in energy, excitement, and overall positive feeling. the tough part as usual is finding some deliberate way of starting the upward motion again. which is tough, considering i just went on a great snowboarding getaway a few weeks ago, went to several great concerts in the past month, had a great valentines day with a girl i’m crazy about (even if she may not fully know it)…

so what’s left to do to make it better? i mean, i can’t afford a drug habit right now — otherwise i’m basically out of ideas. here’s hoping a four day work week will be enough to get things started.