last night, a night of firsts. i got off work and put down a deposit on my first real piece of furniture. i already own a few bookcases/cd shelves which are close, but this time it was a futon. so still the first furniture i can sit/lay/sleep on, which makes it feel more official. we are moving into the house in a week, gotta have that sort of thing around.

also my first trip to an irish pub/restaurant. out in santa monica, california, which seems very unmatched with that style, but it was a good place. i declined the fish and chips and settled in for my first ever pint. only bottles or cans before, which i never really enjoyed. but i have to say my first experience with guinness was much better than previous ones with the american beers which will always remind me of the smell of urine. sorry beer fans. in addition, my first time drinking on a wednesday night before work, although one pint isn’t much to worry about. good times.

sadly though, also the first time it physically hurt me to note how beautiful my ex-girlfriend/current hopefully best-friend/cause of heartbreak/still favorite person in the world — really is. i used to take pleasure in that sort of thing and it’s still great and all, but now it just stings. pretty unfortunate how that works out, i’d say.

it’s worth forging through though to maintain some kind of relationship. i imagine a threefold pain if i were to let her fall out of my life completely, so i should be grateful for the pangs. it’s worth the trouble.

she just looked so attractive…

[now hearing this – pavement – slanted and enchanted, purchased recently for 6 dollars, used, at my personal paradise. i plan to someday, after i become fabulously wealthy, to account for a sizeable percentage of their sales as a single customer. oh, and this is a really good cd i’m embarrassed i didn’t own it before.]