tried to post earlier, but the blogger was not available. not to worry, all i was going to post was a short apology that i’d lived such a boring day i had nothing to talk about. gave a couple decent group presentations at school today (i had to wear a tie. although they’re not comfortable, i do feel sexy, so it’s not so bad), and came home. nothing remarkable.

i’m feeling all restless tonight though because i was telling dom and dustin about the absolutely gorgeous girl in my art class, who was in my group presenting, and who sat right in front of me in class, and who i’m insanely crushing on. now i’ve got girl-craziness and i can’t quite get into studying for my finance midterm. i don’t want to sit here in my room doing homework problems, i want to be out and bump into her coincidentally and finally start a conversation with her so i can see what she’s like. because i think i’ve pinpointed what is bad about being single. the potential for exciting new relationships is good, and the freedom is good, but again potentially. the bad thing is not having anyone on whom to focus your efforts, emotionally. if you get in that mood where you want to be around someone you’re interested in, you don’t really have anywhere to turn, unless you’re already in the process of courting someone. otherwise, your only option is to just go out somewhere hoping to meet someone, which i’ve never done and can’t see happening. so what happens is you’re stuck at home all frustrated and restless, like i am now, with nothing you can really do about it.

if you’re not single, this is never a problem because there’s someone out there you can either go see, or at least know is out there and not have to get this frustration of having no leads to pursue. as i see it, the key problem isn’t having no special girl or guy; it’s not having access to any potential girls or guys. and sometimes, that’s all you want. that’s my theory.

of course, maybe this just means i’m not comfortable being single, which some may see as a problem. i’d rather not dwell on that for too long. we’ll come back to that. just chalk it up to a little bout of post-breakup loneliness, maybe. that’s normal, right?

hey, looks like i did have something to talk about.