nervous nervous nervous nervous.

but i have to do some homework. nothing like some good old assignments to calm a guy down….huh?

i don’t think i get nervous about almost anything anymore, and i’m guessing because there really aren’t that many things i care enough about to want to do really well at, which would cause me to be nervous about my own performance. i get semi-nervous going to interviews but i can’t say i really care much about those generally.

this is a good feeling though in a way, because at least i know i still care about something. i worry sometimes that i’m getting too apathetic and cynical over time and nothing really gets to me any more. but then something like this comes along and i get all queasy and anxious, and reassured that it’s possible for things to penetrate the tough exterior (not muscular tough, don’t get me wrong) every once in a while.

i just need something fresh to give me that sort of jolt, you know?