i was going to write something earlier, but the computer lab i stopped by between classes was chock full of business jerks. figures.

today wasn’t half bad. i still find it amusing that living in LA has conditioned me to be really happy when we get a gray, rainy day. this morning was chill and drizzling, and i liked it. after working a few hours i went and got hot cocoa and a donut and walked to my next class, in the rain, and it was great. the weather, on days like this, just makes me feel so peaceful and introspective and aware, even. it feels more like life is going on when there’s bad weather and you just walk through it smiling anyway. it’s more real this way instead of just trying to be beautiful on another sunny los angeles afternoon.

i also saw a volkswagen beetle (not one of the new ones) driving down one of the wide university sidewalks through the middle of campus today. the two guys inside could have been maintenance people, or maybe they were just passing through and took a wrong turn onto a sidewalk at some point. it made me chuckle though.

tonight would be a perfect night to sit around on the couch with a girl and watch a movie and talk until we were sleepy. it’s a shame that i seem to be incapable of finding one to even propose this to though. no numbers to call, no doors to knock on. just me and the computer here. certain someones are not having this problem, to make matters worse — although i don’t hold it against her. it’s just like a mirror being held up to my own current love life, is all. the reflection is awfully empty.

good bye good mood.