hopefully no one took my blogging silence as an indication of tragedy. the only effects that today’s utterly insane world events have had on me so far are 1) a phone call waking me up early to watch the news (thanks to my girlfriend) and therefore an hour and a half less sleep, 2) watching more tv in one day than i have in the last 15 days probably (i sat in front of cnn for at least six hours today, easily, in blocks of up to two hours at once), 3) having one of my two classes cancelled, and 4) a phone call from my mother in the middle of the week (we usually only talk on sundays).

well, those and some complete disbelief that this actually happened in the world i live in. the first time i saw the footage i could have sworn i was just watching a movie like true lies or something. the bad guys were supposed to have been found, delivered with witty one-liner retorts, and then either killed or captured by a hero in a ripped shirt with bulging muscles. and this within an hour and a half of the initial misdeeds. the real side of terrorism is way scarier, because this leaves the possibility that things aren’t over, that we won’t find out who did what, that our response won’t make things all better in the end, etc.

and to top it off (and not with any intention of belittling the tragic number of lost lives), i never got to see the new york skyline. i’m sure it’s completely different now. can you believe that? one day, a few crazy (but dedicated) individuals, and the world is a different place now. mind-boggling.

in all honesty though, i have to admit that since i’m not really affected by this so far, personally, i feel bad talking about it at all. bad things happened today to a lot of people that probably didn’t deserve them. out of respect i think i should just hope for the best in the coming days and be grateful for my luck in not losing anyone i loved. it may be the corny, trite thing to say here; but what else is there to say?