the economy sucks and i still have a job, so i feel bad ever complaining about money. but hey, i could sure use more.

mainly because i’ve been at a weird state of equilibrium for a couple years where i have all my bills paid and some money to have fun with, but also lots of debt. and it seems like i don’t have quite enough to do what i really should be doing — like paying down that debt or, say, saving more for that wedding we’ll probably want to have at some point — unless i seriously cut out on the having fun part.

or even when i’m good and don’t spend too much, right when it looks like i’m making some headway, boom, it’s time for an expensive car repair, or doctor trip, or other necessity. or i’m faced with being financially ‘responsible’ or skipping things like vacations or holiday trips which is like robbing myself of a real life, which doesn’t make sense either. who wants to be a debt-free 30-year-old with no fun memories from their 20’s? at the end of the day, certainly not me, which is why i’m always on the border of broke. oops!

anyway, if anyone has a bag of 10 thousand dollars they don’t need, it would sure make a big difference. though either way, i’m going to san fran this weekend to see the buddies for some birthdays, music, football, dj sets, and other assorted fun and excuses to drink. i’m sure it’ll be expensive but undoubtedly worth it; i’ll gladly spend the money while there, come back and feel guilty about it, and then move on exactly as before.